DEEPLY WELCOME FROM MY HEART AND WOMB!

I am so honoured you are visiting my page, I hope you feel welcome and maybe resonate with my life experience and joy of being here now - what a privilege to live on earth during these changing and challenging times!

During my adult years, I realised I am a spiritual midwife for our times. Since I was born, I have had a deep longing and calling to live as a lover and mystic, a poet, dancer, singer, shaman, tantrika, and musician…. a dream that has come true for short moments in my life!

A spiritual midwife encounters the core of life in all its glory, harsh reality and joy of changing form rising from the ashes.

Meeting my first spiritual teacher at the age of 13 was crucial. I only heard her speak for 30 minutes and explain her energetic healing of my body. But those minutes felt like years! I was not lost but found and was seen for the second time. At 17 and 21 I was found by two more women who embraced me and put words to many of my experiences. This was the greatest gift from life. All three of them were spiritual healers, I often think of them as the “Trippel Goddess” visiting me in human form.

Because death and the power of the divine darkness have been my most powerful teachers I bow to the quiet, dark mothers of the void, the true feminine that for so long was banished, scorned and misunderstood in our white, patriarchal culture of the forced light, constant growth and an ever materialistic mindset.

The paradox of Darkness is that the light rests within it….. I received this initiation through the loss of my unborn son Ismael at the age of 22. This experience was and still is the greatest pain and the greatest teacher I have ever had. Still today I draw from the well of the Dark Light that held me in my grief. This was an initiation beyond words, a baptism into the centre of reality and a spiritual gift of receiving a pathway to the deep intimacy of Peace, Compassion and Unconditional love. The Dark Light is a constant death and rebirth experience, an everlasting initiation into this life on earth and my human experience.

Becoming a real human being took me a long time. My “re-incarnation” process after this profound loss felt like a descent of tender rain returning to earth, my soul touching this reality with much essence and hardly any form. I went through a long struggle, much therapy and even more silence to find my place in our restless and fast-paced society. Gravity brought me home to my body and Mother Earth, and through the years, I learnt to rest deeply in my body and my loving, powerful soul. My journey of descent and ascent from the deep was wisely guided through years of trauma therapy, personal development and gentle mentoring, an unfolding of the power of love and the erotic creative lifeforce of nature and our human nature. I love to wake up in the morning and be here now.

I have been gifted so much. I have seen and felt the beauty in this world and have met people who have touched me so profoundly. What a wonderful life this is! What a heartbreaking life this is. What an incredible gift to be a human being and be here now through these times of great change. I deeply trust the unfolding of my soul, and I pray I may live to become a blessing in this lifetime and, when my time comes, return well to the luminous Dark Mother of us all….

I am lovingly devoted to the Beautiful Path of the Sacred Rose…

She has brought me to sacred sites and meetings with medicine women, shamans and healers, wise men and women. I have been gifted many titles and names to remember who I am.

My Soul calls me to root deeper into Mother Earth and this precious body. The third phase of my life has just begun and I can no longer stay hidden. Through the Beauty of the Sacred Rose, I am gathering my soul fragments home and gently unfolding together with an inner mystery school of soul-based education helping us remember, reclaim and reinitiate through the treasures of the Shrine of Sacred Secrets.

I bow to the sacredness within. I bow to the Sacred Path of EROS - the ROSE.

Pieces of training that has nurtured me well: